“From Longman Dictionary of Contemporary Englishwallow in self-pity/despair/defeat wallow in self-pity/despair/defeat etc to seem to enjoy being sad etc, especially because you get sympathy from other people – used to show disapproval He’d been feeling sorry for himself, wallowing in self-pity.”(1) AKA Hero to Zero as Neil puts it. Ok, […]
December 2, 2021- starting this at 12:15 am. I sense an all-nighter but if I write everything I want to, then I will be able to go to bed. I am doing good. I really want to try and focus on positive stuff, look for signs of goodness rather than […]
Tuesday, November 30, 2021- The fallout. I had two doctor appointments on Friday over the phone. I knew something had to change and I wanted to talk to my shrink and let her know what happened to me while I was taking Clonazepam. My therapist Dr feels that I likely […]
Well hi everyone. I need to write a shitty blog. As you may know, I am bipolar, Bipolar 1. And as many people have indicated for a while is that I have been manic, I wish that back right now. The doctor is worried about my irregular sleep as well […]
Sixteen years ago on this night, I stood in my garage thinking about hanging myself. I had a flash of my kids, 2 and 7 years old and I was so full of self-hatred and disgust that I burned myself on the arm several times with my cigarette. I rushed […]
Almost a month has gone by without me writing. I have been wanting to write for a while but things get busy, everyone knows what that is like, I do my best. In my last post, I talked about being in a band. It is still a thing though we […]
I have been procrastinating posting a blog. I have had some very exciting news to share, but I never seemed to have the time to dedicate to writing, and I am so far behind and I have a lot to say. As always. The last time I posted, I was […]
I am on top of the world. I watch my video over and over. Thursday was an incredible night. Only my third time with this group of guys and did my first 3 song set, with no lyrics. So my background in singing is karaoke as I have mentioned before […]
She comes out of her brown and beige travel van with curtains in the window. The speakers are set up and after some fine-tuning, they start their set. A beautiful girl with a beautiful voice and whose partner is so nice; I was tongue-tied when he actually asked me a […]
Saturday, July 12th It has been a long time since I have written anything I have been so busy with school and singing. School is hard, having a hard time focusing and organizing myself, but learned I can focus outside or on the bus. But the newest adventure is we […]
Adventures of Dit Dot 