Almost a month has gone by without me writing. I have been wanting to write for a while but things get busy, everyone knows what that is like, I do my best. In my last post, I talked about being in a band. It is still a thing though we had to make a few changes, bit of drama, and the young guy got a promotion and is moving in 2 weeks! Our goal right now is to nail 4 songs, record, and post, likely on youtube, and I will definitely link my page.

Today we met our new drummer and he has it going on, with a bit of practice with our group we are going to rock it.  It has been so very exciting and I am forgetting to do things like dishes and eating. For the first little while I was trying to fit it all in; open mic, karaoke, band. Trying to memorize lyrics but know that most people use lyrics. Singing for 2 hours.. would be a lot. The best I can do is really listen to the songs and know when my cue is. My friend helping me with that, I need to give her a name. Mmm. Will get back to that.

Neil has gone to England to visit his mom and sister and friends. NO way I could travel with him, even if I had the money. My pup is terminally ill and I am not leaving him. I went to England about 4 years ago. My oldest pup becomes suddenly very ill, she had Cushing’s disease and bad hips. She was the most loving and caring soul I have ever met, if you cry she would sit on your lap, or lie across your chest. My daughter’s bond with her was strong. The worst thing ever happened, and I had to have kids, be with her for her end. My son couldn’t bear going in, so my 12 year old held her. My story of guilt and sadness for the kids. I didn’t feel I had an option. I still have guilt. 

I spent the last few days doing things around the house, and because Neil gets my newsletters I won’t go into details now because it is a surprise. That will be my next post.

But what I can tell you is about the little bits of shopping I have been doing, oh yes and so much exciting things, I am surprised my feet still touch the ground.

So the first thing was a new mic, the band says I need a new mic. But alas, I start looking at amps. I end up buying the mic and the amp. When I got home I realized I actually did not have the right hookups so I asked my rock star friend what I needed. She said get …..this for your mic and get this…..for your guitar.

Guitar? My guitar doesn’t plug in….lightbulb moment, drum roll, please…

I go back to the shop, I say I need….. And asked about changing my guitar into an electric guitar. My rock star friend got that in my head. So the guy at the store brought me to the back room (nothing kinky here sorry folks) as we talked about the cost of converting mine. 

I said to him,

“My guitar isn’t the best, it would not be worth it.”

Then I say,

“So..how much are your electric acoustic guitar?” I said, “I have a small budget.”

We started looking through the guitars. And there it was. Sunburst Fender. LIKE wtf!!!

I am excited, it is the only music equipment I know, I have heard of Fender so must be good. Neil was with me so I thanked the guy and bought the 2 cords.

Neil left the next day for England. Two days later (maybe one day) I am at the store with my music partner. I walk in and say,

“Hi, I need help, there is a Fender in the backroom for $250.00.”

“Ah no…I don’t think so, I doubt it.”  and looked at me like I was off my rocker.

So I tell him I will show him and we go to the backroom; my friend is browsing. And there it was, the same place. He really looked surprised, maybe it was priced wrong.

So I tell him my life story and he sells me this beautiful guitar.

NOW I can plug in my guitar. I am now the proud owner of an electric acoustic guitar and want to name her. And no, I can’t really play but I am hoping, and it has, encouraged me to learn more. I have even started using a pic. For ten years I strummed with my thumb. It’s awkward with a pic. But I don’t have guitar skills yet. I wrote a little song when I first started learning guitar. It has 3 chords in it. If I stretch the song out with a solo It is a 2-minute song. Blue October, Mountain, is only that long as well, and he is rich. Haha. Someday it will sound really good, until then, I keep recording myself doing it and someday it will flow, have a couple of other songs I want to do, want to learn. Zombie is supposed to be easy. There is another one but I can’t think of it right now. Youtube has great people doing tutorials and I think they really help me. Half of one of my courses was researching youtube videos.

So now, I have a Shure58 mic and an “Acoustic “ Amp. 

So I play my videos off my laptop and something I have been wanting to change.

Neil says my speakers are pieces of shit (the typical computer speakers) and I had no idea what else I could buy, so, once again I ask my rock star friend if she has any suggestions. So she sends me a link of a guy selling speakers. So I messaged him,  he delivered them to me and told me if I needed a hand to contact him. SO long story, I eventually get it after a couple of videos of me trying to figure out what I was doing wrong. Eventually got it all sorted.

They are recording speakers and let me tell you they are amazing. They weren’t too expensive. My video recordings are sounding so good with all of this extra stuff, all to make me feel more professional. 

I don’t think there is anything else I want other than maybe a headset so I can hear myself. I am not sure what they are called, but I talked to my rock start friend about them, hers were really expensive and I have been warned to not get my music stuff from the biggest online shopping department store. Lol.

I am missing Neil, I am purposely keeping myself busy but I do have a lot to do, but I am going to try and help him through his visit in the evenings as he is feeling rather lonely. I felt bad for being so caught up in my stuff. I have enjoyed taking time for myself. I have enjoyed having time to practice guitar, and tonight, write. I have much more to do but I will try being around in the evening until he goes to bed, except Wednesday, I am going to see my rock star friend perform. It is also open mic night, I don’t think I can do both, maybe an hour with her if she starts at 7, and then I can go to open mic. Need to dress up, have so many stage outfits and they are all rock star skulls and buckles 😉

I even have a day of the dead dress, I wore that today to be all fancy for practice. Gets me in the mood

I guess my biggest fear is to be rejected by the group and my friend goes on and be famous with them. I get support though, I think I am good. Maybe safe.

I hope.

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Christie F.

Welcome to my blog. I have been journal writing for years. I took a course in Creative writing and found I enjoy writing short stories and poetry. I write more when I am hypomanic or manic.
I went into Rehab for Alcohol Addictions and have been sober for fourteen years.
Shortly after I quit drinking I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2, I have since been diagnosed with Bipolar 1.
I enjoy talking about my story, for people to learn or relate. I try and have a healthy lifestyle and try to use my coping strategies. Life is just too boring without Bipolar, it is a blessing but yet sometimes a curse.
I am currently working on a book and dream of publishing one day.
I am so excited to have found Wordpress.
This is my new adventure.