Sixteen years ago on this night, I stood in my garage thinking about hanging myself. I had a flash of my kids, 2 and 7 years old and I was so full of self-hatred and disgust that I burned myself on the arm several times with my cigarette. I rushed into the house, picked up the phone book and called my psychiatrist.
I took a taxi to emerge to keep me safe. They admitted me and I humiliated myself, drunk, causing a ruckus. I left the next morning with my tail between my legs.
I come outside and I see my husband and kids waiting for me in the car.
What the fuck was I doing? I vowed that day to never drink alcohol again.
And 16 years later I have not, and never will. Happy 16 years without booze.
And life is good without 🙂
Welcome to my blog. I have been journal writing for years. I took a course in Creative writing and found I enjoy writing short stories and poetry. I write more when I am hypomanic or manic.
I went into Rehab for Alcohol Addictions and have been sober for fourteen years.
Shortly after I quit drinking I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2, I have since been diagnosed with Bipolar 1.
I enjoy talking about my story, for people to learn or relate. I try and have a healthy lifestyle and try to use my coping strategies. Life is just too boring without Bipolar, it is a blessing but yet sometimes a curse.
I am currently working on a book and dream of publishing one day.
I am so excited to have found Wordpress.
This is my new adventure.