Well hello. The usual, it has been a long time since I have posted. Perhaps it is overindulgence in making music, perhaps it is a coping strategy or perhaps it is the first time in my life that I feel included, accepted and celebrated. Maybe that is the real pull […]
It was the final straw. I hit rock bottom. More than depression (which is bad enough) but suicidal ideation. For those 15 minutes alone, for that 10-minute call with the distress center, with letters written to my doctors, with a message sent out to kids reaching for support. It finally […]
Photo :shuttestock.com -Google search for butterfly pics Well, this year has almost gone by already. This year has been difficult, as everyone says at the end of the year. I don’t normally do that but it has a positive side to things too. I had cancer, follicular lymphoma, and discovered […]
This is the first Christmas I am not too loopy. Every year I tell my shrink I go “crazy” around Christmas time. This year she upped my meds before things got too hairy. I have stopped loving Christmas as I got caught in the rat race, of let’s show the […]
Sixteen years ago on this night, I stood in my garage thinking about hanging myself. I had a flash of my kids, 2 and 7 years old and I was so full of self-hatred and disgust that I burned myself on the arm several times with my cigarette. I rushed […]
Follow The thick grey clouds engulf me There is no sign of the brilliant moon The path seems so obscure you cannot find your way Saving grace of the tiny fluttering wings who brings you light It beckons me to follow I have nothing to lose I’m brought to a […]
Unknown Deadly creatures in the air Invisible to the naked eye Looming in darkness and light too Fears of the unknown creeping in my chest What will happen next? Will I die too? Isolation at it’s best We don’t even have to get dressed As we sit and eat, as […]
Sadness I broke down. It’s been a couple of months now that my daughter decided she was more stable at her Dad’s. Which is a complete turnaround as she had never been close to her dad, but I guess, well they are now. For those of you following me, you […]
I am really loving this. A place for my thoughts, my story, my short stories, and my poetry. My creations. I have gained more confidence since I completed a workshop on Creative Writing at Algonquin College and through here. I am currently enrolled in the Creative Writing Program now. I have […]
Adventures of Dit Dot 