You missed it. My brief brush of mania, here and seemingly already gone or maybe I just burnt up my energy. Doing this karaoke stuff, we had a “room party” on Facebook. It was so much fun. I posted a song to Smule and have since moved it to Utube […]
I am supposed to have all sorts of things to say about my wedding, it is part of my book that I am writing in. But no one was expecting a pandemic. At the time that we had just met with the Officiant and before we got around to filling […]
Tuesday, April 7th, 2020 I haven’t been around much. I have been feeling rather down. I thought this would give me huge opportunities to write yet the demons are thick in my head making me full of doubt. On virtually anything I do. I am always criticizing myself, doubting myself. […]
Thursday, March 5th, 2020 My first drink on my own I was in grade six. So eleven or twelve. I was a latch key kid and I went home for lunch and sometimes drank out of my dad’s vodka he had under the kitchen sink. I thought it was god […]
Saturday, February 29th, 2020, leap year. Is it weird that I want to hyphenate my name? I mean I have been divorced for 13 years, the same amount of time that I was married. What’s in a name? My kids. I want me to continue having their name. And I […]
Chapter 6 January 30th, 2020 Rebecca. She has no idea what she has done for me. She has woken my spirit. I feel it. Finally, inside. She sent me a link to a video on YouTube; “Aura Cleansing” I am still listening to it. I don’t normally listen to music […]
My Mind is not quiet I’m going to start a riot I can be blind But most often kind I’d like to be normal But that is too formal But you see it in my frown When everything is upside down My thoughts are abundant And maybe a little redundant […]
January 2, 2020. I am so embarrassed and I don’t want to go out. I was miserable at New Years because my clothes were too tight. I have gained 10 pounds since starting the higher dose of the med they gave me during my recent manic episode. Last time I […]
Happy New Year fellow bloggers and visitors and followers! I hope your New Years was joyful, loved and safe. Neil and I decided to go out with friends for like our first time. We have mainly gone to friends but this year I wanted something different. I wanted to go […]
It has been 24 days since I have driven. Dr.’s orders while I take a higher dose of meds to control my mania. Two things going on here that are on my mind. My car, number one. It has been on my mind a lot. Just like everything else, I […]
