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Christmas is Over

Christmas for some reason is a trigger for my bipolar.  I am currently being treated for an episode of mania. Every year I go a bit nuts around the beginning of December. I am not sure why. Is it the weather? Is it my Christmas anxiety over stupid stuff like […]

Dec. 19th 2019

Things have been so stressful here and I can feel the mania surface again. I also dropped the day time dose too quick. So I was good yesterday, I followed the directions to take at least half the dose. Neil and I decided we would take an evening to ourselves […]

Empty

I am sitting here, house to myself and I am blank.  The meds worked. It took quite a bit of time. But ya, they worked.  I am kind of in a bit of a fog. I still don’t realize that I was sick, though I had my fiancee point it […]

The Brakes Are On

Thursday Friday happy days….. Um perhaps not. Thursday I did finally see my doctor.  I was pretty anxious about this apt because my family Doctor called and everyone was suggesting hospitalization,  Which I started realizing ya maybe. A few months back I was doing a pill form chemotherapy for my […]

The Dance-a poem

Do you dare dance with me? Shall I take your hand? To a faraway land? Luxurious temptation Like a soft velvet against my skin Smoothly follow my lead I will guide you through Come take a chance And join me in my dance. Quietly it moves us Whispering secrets and […]

Falling Down

Immobilized Feeling rather dark the last couple of days. The doctor always tells me when I have been manic “The higher you go the harder you fall”.  I have been hypomanic/manic for a while now. I have mostly enjoyed it, except for the restlessness, the difficulty sleeping despite my medication. […]

My Bipolar Story

My troubles began in elementary school.  Attention seeking behavior, distracting the class, alcohol and tobacco use, being labeled a trouble maker.  I always say a loveable trouble maker. I already had issues with body image, and mine was poor. And it still follows me today. Grades seven and eight I […]

Elemental Battle

Internal discomfort running through my body No escapes It torments Fuel in my head ignites the fire Losing control Blazing Jumbled, garbled Abundance of energy Plethora of emotions Engrossed, overwhelmed Exasperated, immobilised By this madness Abolish these senseless thoughts This energy of my mind Need them to go  Need it […]