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Christmas is Over

Christmas for some reason is a trigger for my bipolar.  I am currently being treated for an episode of mania. Every year I go a bit nuts around the beginning of December. I am not sure why. Is it the weather? Is it my Christmas anxiety over stupid stuff like […]

Dec. 19th 2019

Things have been so stressful here and I can feel the mania surface again. I also dropped the day time dose too quick. So I was good yesterday, I followed the directions to take at least half the dose. Neil and I decided we would take an evening to ourselves […]

Empty

I am sitting here, house to myself and I am blank.  The meds worked. It took quite a bit of time. But ya, they worked.  I am kind of in a bit of a fog. I still don’t realize that I was sick, though I had my fiancee point it […]

The Brakes Are On

Thursday Friday happy days….. Um perhaps not. Thursday I did finally see my doctor.  I was pretty anxious about this apt because my family Doctor called and everyone was suggesting hospitalization,  Which I started realizing ya maybe. A few months back I was doing a pill form chemotherapy for my […]

The Dance-a poem

Do you dare dance with me? Shall I take your hand? To a faraway land? Luxurious temptation Like a soft velvet against my skin Smoothly follow my lead I will guide you through Come take a chance And join me in my dance. Quietly it moves us Whispering secrets and […]

Falling Down

Immobilized Feeling rather dark the last couple of days. The doctor always tells me when I have been manic “The higher you go the harder you fall”.  I have been hypomanic/manic for a while now. I have mostly enjoyed it, except for the restlessness, the difficulty sleeping despite my medication. […]

My Bipolar Story

My troubles began in elementary school.  Attention seeking behavior, distracting the class, alcohol and tobacco use, being labeled a trouble maker.  I always say a loveable trouble maker. I already had issues with body image, and mine was poor. And it still follows me today. Grades seven and eight I […]