I DID IT! I DID IT!
Ya, I did, I sent my letters and all of that stuff (last post) to Jessica, the whole story. I was so worried she would think I was really crazy, but as she said we are all a little bit crazy some find it easier to hide. LOL phew. Anyway, she was flattered and even said she cried. Sounds like I made her day and that was the intention. We talked about the other guys that I have been around, and like I have said “I am with the best people ever’.
And it couldn’t be more true. They have all encouraged me, been kind to me, encouraging the audience to get a round of happy applause for my performance. I think I am likeable so I think I can get away with being a little um imbalance haha
OOO Happy NEw YEar to everyone. I hope you were able to enjoy some holiday cheer, hope your loved ones are safe, and warm thoughts sent to those who might be ill.
One of the things I like about writing is sometimes I have really good ideas, and maybe someone might try new things too. Like I talk about karaoke and how my friend put together a whole group to hang out during COVID. Karaoke folk, but I know a girl there who does ZUMBA classes and that’s through social media.
Our karaoke group had a party on New Year’s Eve. ONLINE..k breath, no seriously there were about 14 people here and there through the evening that started at 9 pm, online.
Love dressing up. I have tastes ranging from hippie to rocker chick, goth girl, BDSM something or whatever lol, or how I like to see my current style as alternative punk. Halloween we had a party..there are pics somewhere, was our Halloween party we did a group watch of The Rocky Horror Picture show and I dressed up like Frank N. Furter
I also love being on stage during one of those blessed hypomania times that I get the bar singing and dancing (yup that has happened) I can be the life of the party. Well, I felt I was last night, haha, though a bit chatty some people may have realized I am actually a tad nuts.
BUUUUT my outfit. I am in my glory dressing up, even if it is for karaoke in bars, I like my rocker look and sometimes it is sexier than other times, sometimes I even do the grunge look, but that was before when I used to get my nails done. I always figured with a french manicure on porcelain nails would dress up even sweats. Anyways. Without hesitation I put on my outfit, complete finally with the boots, there is a story about my boots too I reckon. Neil likes to do little photoshoots, esp when I get dressed up. This is the outfit (minus the boots) that I wore to our friends for an evening. Maybe I will talk about them more someday.
Grandiose pic and Archie
So we had this room of 12 or so people, and this is my outfit, heck maybe I will even post a pic of our party…
INSERT Group photo
O the outfit looks good with my boots. I am so excited to finally have a goin out outfit. Something fancier than jeans. Something that maybe I would wear on stage, or going to friends. Archie, my dog loves me so much, he watches every move I make so I am including these as well. I will have to choose a few.
Me and Archie
It’s nice to dress up, for me it is dressing up like a rock star again, it is about me having confidence again, it is a celebration of who I am becoming knowing full well I can come home to my hippie clothes, haha, I should take pics of that too. So this stuff is pretty personal, sharing pics and stuff, but I am out here saying you can have fun too with restrictions. Have wine nights with the girls, or guys can group watch sports, there are always hobbies and things to learn, this is a fantastic time to do it. You can get free online courses, writing is always as great as you know.
I guess another reason I want to show pics is cause you can see how happy I am, I was goin to an online party. I was excited about that. Little things excite me, little things move me, little things touch me.
So for me, it is a battle I am winning. I am in the caution zone though so I am calling dr tomorrow. I have so much to share.
Oddly enough though I do check randomly if people like what I have to say, I seem to get more feedback when I am struggling, or some of my dark poems. People like that too it seems. I wish positive stuff could be popular as well. For now, I am on an up and maybe I am here to cheer someone up, or have someone say,
“Oh Honey, why dont we arrange an online party with a few friends this weekend”
(Understandably difficult for those without internet, which all of you are reading from something). My parents though do not have the internet. ANyways, so much you can do, I have my disgusting dark days, I am celebrating right now
And here are pics of when I look my best. I had such a good time, and Neil loves doing photoshoots (as do I sometimes), and I love my beagle mix with Siberian Husky doggy and he defiantly loves me. I wish I could make him a service dog. He never leaves my side.
Happy New Year friends. May everything be alright for you.
Welcome to my blog. I have been journal writing for years. I took a course in Creative writing and found I enjoy writing short stories and poetry. I write more when I am hypomanic or manic.
I went into Rehab for Alcohol Addictions and have been sober for fourteen years.
Shortly after I quit drinking I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2, I have since been diagnosed with Bipolar 1.
I enjoy talking about my story, for people to learn or relate. I try and have a healthy lifestyle and try to use my coping strategies. Life is just too boring without Bipolar, it is a blessing but yet sometimes a curse.
I am currently working on a book and dream of publishing one day.
I am so excited to have found Wordpress.
This is my new adventure.