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In-Between 2021-2022

This is the first Christmas I am not too loopy. Every year I tell my shrink I go “crazy” around Christmas time. This year she upped my meds before things got too hairy. I have stopped loving Christmas as I got caught in the rat race, of let’s show the […]

Wallow-In-Self-Pity

“From Longman Dictionary of Contemporary Englishwallow in self-pity/despair/defeat wallow in self-pity/despair/defeat etc to seem to enjoy being sad etc, especially because you get sympathy from other people – used to show disapproval He’d been feeling sorry for himself, wallowing in self-pity.”(1) AKA Hero to Zero as Neil puts it. Ok, […]

Chin Up Buttercup

December 2, 2021- starting this at 12:15 am. I sense an all-nighter but if I write everything I want to, then I will be able to go to bed. I am doing good. I really want to try and focus on positive stuff, look for signs of goodness rather than […]

Fallout

Tuesday, November 30, 2021- The fallout. I had two doctor appointments on Friday over the phone. I knew something had to change and I wanted to talk to my shrink and let her know what happened to me while I was taking Clonazepam. My therapist Dr feels that I likely […]

4/4/2021

Cool date. Easter Sunday for us. I was more focused on preparing for my dad to come over that I forgot about my own kids. Way too old for the whole Easter egg hunt, and my daughter is still staying at her dad’s. We have nice visits and have had […]

After Thought to TGIF

Afterthought. After reading back on my posts I recognize something, like just. My flair of mania with the ever-changing playrooms and hair colour was actually me trying to deal with my mom’s health which seriously took a nosedive around the new year. I tend to hyperfocus on odd things, the […]

Short, Busy, and Sweet

Short, busy, and sweet  Feb 2, 2021 Started 2 days ago, edited and shortened I don’t know where to start, I am not sure when it began but I can’t sit down. I have not been able to commit myself to write but I think I need to start writing […]