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Decisions

It has been 24 days since I have driven. Dr.’s orders while I take a higher dose of meds to control my mania. Two things going on here that are on my mind. My car, number one. It has been on my mind a lot.  Just like everything else, I […]

Christmas is Over

Christmas for some reason is a trigger for my bipolar.  I am currently being treated for an episode of mania. Every year I go a bit nuts around the beginning of December. I am not sure why. Is it the weather? Is it my Christmas anxiety over stupid stuff like […]

A Bit Of Green

About a year and a half ago I was in the process of moving, preparing my house to go up for sale.  It was such a difficult time for me, both on my mental health and my physical health. I was exhausted, overwhelmed and the change, not knowing where I […]

Dec. 19th 2019

Things have been so stressful here and I can feel the mania surface again. I also dropped the day time dose too quick. So I was good yesterday, I followed the directions to take at least half the dose. Neil and I decided we would take an evening to ourselves […]

The Change

So, my posts have been a bit negative, I certainly was having a hard time, as was my fiance.  I had been dealing with mania that worsened with time and failing to realize that my doctor increased my med I stayed on the lower dose. That didn’t work in the […]

Empty

I am sitting here, house to myself and I am blank.  The meds worked. It took quite a bit of time. But ya, they worked.  I am kind of in a bit of a fog. I still don’t realize that I was sick, though I had my fiancee point it […]

When Darkness Falls Upon Me

When the darkness falls upon me And the sounds and thoughts are intrusive  He will guide me through you will see. I need you to be true and set me free Please don’t turn your back from my madness When darkness falls upon me He brought me to his castle […]