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Without A Trace

I bow my head as twines of onyx hides my ruby faceAll I feel is dread A knot of thoughts swirling through my mindI can’t stand being this kind I am unable to breathe I can not let goThe angels I know Are at war. His eyes bore down on […]

In-Between 2021-2022

This is the first Christmas I am not too loopy. Every year I tell my shrink I go “crazy” around Christmas time. This year she upped my meds before things got too hairy. I have stopped loving Christmas as I got caught in the rat race, of let’s show the […]

Wallow-In-Self-Pity

“From Longman Dictionary of Contemporary Englishwallow in self-pity/despair/defeat wallow in self-pity/despair/defeat etc to seem to enjoy being sad etc, especially because you get sympathy from other people – used to show disapproval He’d been feeling sorry for himself, wallowing in self-pity.”(1) AKA Hero to Zero as Neil puts it. Ok, […]

Chin Up Buttercup

December 2, 2021- starting this at 12:15 am. I sense an all-nighter but if I write everything I want to, then I will be able to go to bed. I am doing good. I really want to try and focus on positive stuff, look for signs of goodness rather than […]

Fallout

Tuesday, November 30, 2021- The fallout. I had two doctor appointments on Friday over the phone. I knew something had to change and I wanted to talk to my shrink and let her know what happened to me while I was taking Clonazepam. My therapist Dr feels that I likely […]

Open Mic Aug. 2021

I am on top of the world. I watch my video over and over. Thursday was an incredible night. Only my third time with this group of guys and did my first 3 song set, with no lyrics. So my background in singing is karaoke as I have mentioned before […]