You are my third child that I never had. Saved me from the raths of hell Only he could tell How broken I had become Oh my Ace I just want to see your face And submerge myself in your warmth In the comfort of your beautiful coat. Your love […]
It has been a very difficult week for me. On April Fool’s Day, I got a call from the dr who arranged the biopsy on my lingual lymph node which is enlarged. “I have referred you to the Cancer Clinic,” says the doctor. It is very strange because all I […]
What would you do if you were told you had 6 months to live? It’s the question I am asking myself after going through several tests due to “my lump”. Back in January, I noticed I had a lump; I kind of understand it is there to help fight infection. […]
I have so much to say..so much to report, this might be longer than my usual 3-page blogs. SOOO much has been going on. I will try backtracking starting from this moment. I decided to name him Ranger. He has been hiding all day. He is a Fantasy Horned Frog. […]
Saturday, January 29th, 2022 Ottawa, Ontario Canada We are all over the world right now. The hot topic is in Canada. (We made it the front page of BBC newspaper. (Yet, I realize there are actually critical situations around the world.) I can’t even fathom getting into politics or taking […]
I bow my head as twines of onyx hides my ruby faceAll I feel is dread A knot of thoughts swirling through my mindI can’t stand being this kind I am unable to breathe I can not let goThe angels I know Are at war. His eyes bore down on […]
This is the first Christmas I am not too loopy. Every year I tell my shrink I go “crazy” around Christmas time. This year she upped my meds before things got too hairy. I have stopped loving Christmas as I got caught in the rat race, of let’s show the […]
“From Longman Dictionary of Contemporary Englishwallow in self-pity/despair/defeat wallow in self-pity/despair/defeat etc to seem to enjoy being sad etc, especially because you get sympathy from other people – used to show disapproval He’d been feeling sorry for himself, wallowing in self-pity.”(1) AKA Hero to Zero as Neil puts it. Ok, […]
December 2, 2021- starting this at 12:15 am. I sense an all-nighter but if I write everything I want to, then I will be able to go to bed. I am doing good. I really want to try and focus on positive stuff, look for signs of goodness rather than […]
Tuesday, November 30, 2021- The fallout. I had two doctor appointments on Friday over the phone. I knew something had to change and I wanted to talk to my shrink and let her know what happened to me while I was taking Clonazepam. My therapist Dr feels that I likely […]
Adventures of Dit Dot 