February 8th, 2020
I haven’t had a chance to write for a while. I am not sure what happened, but I guess I have been busy most days going out to appointments or over to my mom and dad’s. I haven’t really been feeling creative either. I started talking more Seroquel again, I was having a very hard time slowing down. My brain was just going too fast and I couldn’t think through any of my thoughts. I feel a bit more mellow, but now I am not sure if it is my new blood pressure medication.
At my last full physical my blood pressure was high. The nurse came in to prepare me for the rest of my appointment. She saw it was high, I could tell by her expression.The doctor took it ten minutes later and it still showed high. We spoke of my blood pressure in the past and I had told him I was keeping track of it at home and it mainly shows high.
So I started this med, it is a diuretic used to treat high blood pressure. We are trying that at a small dose. I have had a couple of near normal and some a bit high, but lower than in the doctor’s office.
So I have slowed down because of this medication I think. I haven’t actually been feeling that great. My appetite is gone (good thing really). I feel very tired, a bit lifeless and restless if that makes sense.
Mmm, maybe part of it is I have too many projects on the go and I am overwhelmed. So then I become numb. I didn’t know what to work on. I wanted to do it all.
But my body is restless, I am having a hard time being still in the evening, though I had a couple of days that I could read. I now have four books to read…a bit of impulsive shopping seeing as how long it takes me to get through one.
I can’t cuddle with Neil because it is torture for me to just lie there, I just can’t hold still. (Yes, I suppose we could have sex lol)
Oooooo. So I am shopping. A lot. I was telling Rebecca that Archie needs to be spoiled.
“How about a new bed, mom?”
“Hey, that is a great idea!”
I open my computer to Amazon and I start searching for dog beds. I took some measurements and walked around with a measuring tape. I also found dog cots. I have never seen that before with the exception of at the shelter. So I bought a “mattress” and I bought him a cot.
I knew the kids would be excited. They love Archie so much. And to see Archie happy and excited is very special.
When Amazon comes to the door, I get really excited with Arcie. I think Archie realizes they are presents. So one day I decided to order dog treats. I made him stay with me while I opened it, his tail wagging , panting and trying to thank me with his kisses. He was so excited. It makes me happy to make him happy. Always does.
The mattress and the cot were delivered on Wednesday. The mattress is rolled up tight and vacuum sealed. It needed an hour or so to fluff up. In the meantime I lay the empty cover down on the floor and Archie went to see it. About half an hour later, Archie is lying on the cover.
I was so very excited to put the whole bed together and I couldn’t have asked for a more beautiful time. Both kids were getting the cot together while Archie sniffed around them exploring the new item.
“Is this your new bed Archie??!!”
All of us together several times;
“Is this your new bed??!!”
He was so excited, jumping around wagging his tail. Nudging at our elbow.
When it was finally complete we placed it where his old bed was. Archie jumped on it right away, We got him off the cot and placed the mattress on top. It’s an orthopedic bed and good quality. Archie is definitely in heaven.
The kids placed one of his puppy blankets over the mattress part and tucked it in (they never do that with their beds). We found a pillow and had that on his bed, later we added a blanket for his back to cozy up with. I do think it is his favorite one now. His very own bed. I also make him homemade food, he knows he is loved, and of course he loves the food.
In case you are wondering what I make..it is really easy. I measure out six cups of water and equal parts rice (Makes twelve cups). I get out four eggs and I scrabble them plain, nothing added. I cut up one or two pieces of chicken breast and boil them for 15-20 minutes, until thoroughly cooked. I chop up about one cup of carrots and cook them in a pot to make them soft. I take about one cup of green peas. When the chicken is cooked most else will be as well. And I mix it all in. I use my big saucepan.
I used to bag them all out in portions with the Glad Sandwich bags but I was tired of the waste, even though I would reuse them several times. So I went to the Dollar store and found plastic containers that are perfect for single portions.
I love my dog so much. We rescued him at an out of town shelter. He was only six months old. But we soon found out that he had been abused previously. He was scared around moving feet, like if you were sitting on the floor and you move your legs fast he would flinch and try and get away.
He is going to be seven this month.
He is much more trusting now, in fact, I would like to say completely but things like brooms scare him. It is sad that he had to deal with that at some point in his life. We like to pamper him and make him feel like a king.
Welcome to my blog. I have been journal writing for years. I took a course in Creative writing and found I enjoy writing short stories and poetry. I write more when I am hypomanic or manic.
I went into Rehab for Alcohol Addictions and have been sober for fourteen years.
Shortly after I quit drinking I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2, I have since been diagnosed with Bipolar 1.
I enjoy talking about my story, for people to learn or relate. I try and have a healthy lifestyle and try to use my coping strategies. Life is just too boring without Bipolar, it is a blessing but yet sometimes a curse.
I am currently working on a book and dream of publishing one day.
I am so excited to have found Wordpress.
This is my new adventure.