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Sunday, MAy 29th, 2022

Almost time to mow my lawn. I just found out the city actually encourages No Mow MAy. SO I haven’t mowed my lawn yet- which is what I do every year. The idea or purpose of it is to encourage bees and other insects to live, to have food after winter, it is their first food of the season. 

I have been working on my garden for a few years now, maybe 3 years. Started with a small section built from the original garden. In the first original garden, I added some perennials.

Then one year I was really late in mowing my lawn. I had all sorts of flowering weeds. When it came time to mow I mowed around certain weeds, to give them some structure. I made my middle of lawn garden. I filled that up quickly with more perennials and selected weeds.

I then decided to make another section of my lawn into a garden. And it takes up most of the rest of my lawn leaving 2 feet bare for city snow plow hills, though my neighbour just planted a bunch of irises at the bottom of her lawn. A good choice as you can cut them down in the fall and they grow back so really doesn’t matter where they go.

I had a friend last year that had me going through her garden as she was trying to declutter hers. I ended up with about 10 plants for my newest garden. Still has more to go but I am trying to get it to where I want it. I haven’t “dug” a garden, only de-weed around the new plants.

My theory is if you walk on it enough it kills the grass and easier to pull out.

My soil is really good, my neighbour said to flip the grass after digging. Which is a great idea, but I don’t want to dig. The earth is plentiful with little critters, I don’t want to upset their homes. ANd honestly, it is really hard to dig. I did it for my baby tree, and it is growing. I am going to leave the big patch open for my tree to spread out but at some point, I may want to plant around the tree, iris’\s would do well as there will be more shade.

For now, gardening and music are my things. I always have something to talk about.

But I talk too much about one thiing. NOw it is everything I say about it,

“You already said” or worse. I get yelled at.

Get told I talk too much about things.

My question is if all I have is music, guitar, and gardening, what should I talk about? I can’t talk to Neil about stuff I have already said. Stuff that I am really excited about.

Which is why Neil doesn’t come with me to open mics, he will to Karaoke as more of a group he wants to socialize with, there was only one person last time, and I am offering a group of people at open mic -all people he has known from before.

But apparently, it is all about me when I hang out with these people, so I paid attention. I discovered, in fact, there is very little said about or talked about me.

SO I had this really exciting thing that has happened. 

I have been pushing to have a band to play my music. Two of the guys have played in open mic with me, but it was the songs that the host had. So I made a group chat asking if they would be my “band”. Takes a lot of courage to do that, after being told I couldn’t do open mic with this host. Probably because I keep fucking up lyrics.

SO usually when someone says I can’t do something, I find ways around it. I find ways so that I can do it.

We had our first performance at the other Open mic. We did 3 songs. I rocked it, my lyrics were good with slight errors and I was so excited, I really wanted Neil there. But he wasn’t and didn’t want to go even though I invited him,

But now it is more about him having time away from me.NO idea why it was such a strong no on a very eventful open mic for me..

I was on top of the world, I sang 3 songs, one new one from my band and then two from the ones I have done with the host. Was last minute choice of songs and I wasn’t prepared for that.

Then the next time we do it, I f*ck up. Several mistakes. Throwing the band off one of them was so bad. I was so embarrassed and really haven’t talked to them since.

But I will come back, and be stronger. Like really I have to practice so long with these songs.

Also, with my inability to do open mic at one place has made me seek more. If I if can’t have a band (I really hope it works out) then maybe I should do something solo, in fact, I did write about that that and my feedback was “go solo.”- thank you to a reader.

SO that is what I am doing. I am working on one or two covers, Won’t Back Down and Runaway Train” would be my choices.

Very cool, I decided to look at my poetry and see if I could turn it into a song.

LOw and behold I have. The poem is,

When Darkness Falls Upon Me.

And my song is, 

Falls Upon Me.

I will post it separately. I am already at three pages. The last one I wrote for private was six pages!! That is almost a whole chapter on its own.

For those who follow me if you are interested in the rest of the scoop I would find a way to share privately- just an idea Otherwise it is going in my book that I am writing, Actually on my third part. I am so hoping to publish it in the next couple of years.

I have one more course to take in my Creative Writing course. Then I can focus on editing what I have,

Shit. Page 4..

Enjoy your day, we have sun and warmer weather coming.

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Christie F.

Welcome to my blog. I have been journal writing for years. I took a course in Creative writing and found I enjoy writing short stories and poetry. I write more when I am hypomanic or manic.
I went into Rehab for Alcohol Addictions and have been sober for fourteen years.
Shortly after I quit drinking I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2, I have since been diagnosed with Bipolar 1.
I enjoy talking about my story, for people to learn or relate. I try and have a healthy lifestyle and try to use my coping strategies. Life is just too boring without Bipolar, it is a blessing but yet sometimes a curse.
I am currently working on a book and dream of publishing one day.
I am so excited to have found Wordpress.
This is my new adventure.

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