I have been procrastinating posting a blog. I have had some very exciting news to share, but I never seemed to have the time to dedicate to writing, and I am so far behind and I have a lot to say. As always.
The last time I posted, I was on top of the world from a great open mic performance. Since then my friend suggests we put an all-girl band together. I say I need testosterone in my group. If you go way back in my posts, there is one, Three Parts In One -Rock Star posted Dec 30th, 2020, that will explain my goals.
One of my manic episodes has left me wanting rock star status, I manically thought about wanting to be in a band, open mics, karaoke, I wanted to do it all. My ‘mania” gives me drive, makes me creative, makes me impulsive too, and a few other not pleasantries lol. My mania said, “Let’s get a band started.”
So, let’s look at my mental health over the last while. People may realize, or I may have said, that my mania’s, and hypomania are the hardest to treat in me, but have done well now on new meds, Olanzapine, to replace the Seroquel I am taking, and along with others. So I can see I have had a lot of energy and I have a really hard time settling in the evening to watch Tv with Neil.
But then it got really bad, my head had so many racing thoughts, I felt incapacitated to do anything but freeze, when it gets like that, I know I have gone too far with the hypomania. So I did what a good girl should do and increase it to the amount my dr first gave me, to settle mania, and it is the best medication I have been on. In 2 days my head cleared. I think Neil would agree I am still manic, or maybe I agree with him, I don’t feel uncomfortable so it is fine for me in my little bubble, messaging friends. But to live with me? But I will explain why the last little bit has been hard on Neil and I.
I have been over-excited. One day I was scrolling through Facebook and I saw a post from a band that they were looking for a lead singer. Oh wait before that
I found out that one of my open Mics has a 45-minute showcase at the start of each show.
I messaged the host and asked if I could do the 45 min alone or if it was reserved for bands.
“Get yourself a band and I will give you a spot.’
THEN, I saw the post looking for a lead singer.
So, brazenly brave, I sent my two best videos doing an open mic, and my song list of about 25 songs.
We start chatting, several times he told me he knew many of my songs, and then invites me to jam with him on the following Sat. I introduced my friend as backup harmony and manager. She has a lot of experience and knowledge and has been giving me helpful tips, and together my voice is stronger
October 2nd was our second time together, and we are doing pretty well.
We got hired!!!
So..of course, I am excited. Like no wonder, right?
Well for the other person that spends a lot of time with me can be overwhelming and trying to have me around, another sign that ya I still have a bit of hypomania, my head is doing alright as I write, so there’s that.
I start this post one rainy day, and I finish it with some fall evening rain.
Welcome to my blog. I have been journal writing for years. I took a course in Creative writing and found I enjoy writing short stories and poetry. I write more when I am hypomanic or manic.
I went into Rehab for Alcohol Addictions and have been sober for fourteen years.
Shortly after I quit drinking I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2, I have since been diagnosed with Bipolar 1.
I enjoy talking about my story, for people to learn or relate. I try and have a healthy lifestyle and try to use my coping strategies. Life is just too boring without Bipolar, it is a blessing but yet sometimes a curse.
I am currently working on a book and dream of publishing one day.
I am so excited to have found Wordpress.
This is my new adventure.
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