In case anyone is wondering. I am doing ok, I crashed a few days ago, badly. Bad thoughts, fears, scared myself with my thoughts. I am in the process of maybe getting admitted to help balance me off.

I say its a reset, where I get the meds in me (I fight them sometimes) and de-stimulate me with their wonderful white walls. I plan to write, write, play guitar and read and colour one of those adult colouring books which I struggle to do now. They are my coping strategies.

But like I said, a restart. Christmas has always been hard for me, not quite sure why. My fiance says this is the worst he has seen me. Maybe there will be no beds, but I have my fiance, my half-sister, my mom, and now my family doctor who are hoping I can get this opportunity to put an end to this madness.

I have had fun with being manic but like I may have said, too much is not fun, especially when my moods fluctuate so hard right now.

Here is a little bipolar song I wrote years ago. might try and include it , if it works. I am not great but I am teaching myself and very proud of this jingle.

Bonne Fwee

I got something under my sleeve

I think you’ve had a peek at these. 

Don’t be afraid baby I ‘ll be good

I’ll take care of things like I should.

Take my highs baby take my lows

Don’t be afraid just stay right close

Some days will be dark and glum

Somedays I ‘ll be too much fun

But all my days I’ll love you

That I will promise too.

Take my highs baby take my lows

Don’t be afraid just stay right close.

There’ll be days that will be tough

I think we’ll get through all that stuff

You will be my only one

You are my sweet bonnehomme

Take my highs baby take my lows

Don’t be afraid just stay right close.

My hopes are that I write another song, I was planning to do a dark song like my poem I wrote, but for some reason, it is turning into a bit of a positive one too. But it will take me a while to write, and I need so much practice, it has been years since I have touched a guitar This utube video was taken about ten years ago.

Keep at it peeps, work through it. Get support. Stay safe.

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Christie F.

Welcome to my blog. I have been journal writing for years. I took a course in Creative writing and found I enjoy writing short stories and poetry. I write more when I am hypomanic or manic.
I went into Rehab for Alcohol Addictions and have been sober for fourteen years.
Shortly after I quit drinking I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2, I have since been diagnosed with Bipolar 1.
I enjoy talking about my story, for people to learn or relate. I try and have a healthy lifestyle and try to use my coping strategies. Life is just too boring without Bipolar, it is a blessing but yet sometimes a curse.
I am currently working on a book and dream of publishing one day.
I am so excited to have found Wordpress.
This is my new adventure.